Anxiety. Healing IS Possible
In February of 2019 I made a decision that would change my life forever; I made an appointment with a professional Christian counselor. After years of toiling with anxiety and its many cruel manifestations, I found myself exhausted and getting worse. The attacks were more frequent and seemed to last longer than in the past. This was different. My “normal” was to have a brief panic attack, conceal it from those around me, do my best to function normally, and ride out the emotional storm. I was always able to shake it. Not this time.
As I have shared before; I connected with New Vision Christian Counseling and I was set to have my first appointment on February 19, 2019. I was so nervous. The stigma of anxiety, depression, or any kind of mental illness has the power to change how people perceive those who struggle with such demons. What would people think of me? Would I be treated differently? Would I lose the respect of those I love and admire? My head was spinning with these kinds of thoughts and fears. Finally, I determined that being well was more important than what people thought. I had to try.
My counselor is Summer. She is amazing! She loves the Lord and is such an encourager. Her expertise, knowledge, and confidence in a complete healing gave me hope! I needed that. For the next several weeks I would take a journey processing the most traumatic moments of my childhood. I learned about how the mind records, processes, and tries to make sense of our trauma. God’s handiwork is truly remarkable! Our brains are a powerful testimony of God’s brilliance. However; the stain of sin created imperfections that can cause our brains to malfunction and struggle. That was me. I learned what triggered my attacks, how to work through the onset of my anxiety attacks, and even how to prevent them. I am finding healing!
It has been over two weeks since I have had an anxiety attack! I cannot remember the last time that I was able to say that! I feel normal again! I have moved my appointments from weekly to monthly. My next move will be to check in every other month. I do not know if I am officially healed, but I do know that I am on the right track.
One of the most difficult parts of anxiety is that it feels like it is going to last forever. You feel alone, broken, and without hope. It is awful. My encouragement for you today is to get help! ASAP! Do not wait, do not make excuses, just get help. If you are in Oklahoma City, call New Vision Counseling and get to work! You do not have to keep on living like you have been living anymore. You are not alone. You can find healing. Your source of hope is the Almighty God of this universe who loves you with an everlasting love! Are you ready to get help? Then do it! As the old sermon illustration goes; I am just a poor beggar telling other beggars where I found food. Much love!